Living As A Cancer Survivor - Honest Evaluations Can Hurt
If you have consistently read my blog (this is my 47th entry), you should have a good understanding of my personality. It's hard to put into perspective how I gauge my emotions every day. Nothing causes more stress and desperation than hearing someone I love, worried. I automatically speed through my mind how I could be responsible. I react that way because it breaks my heart to see a loved one hurting.
NOTHING SPECIAL
I am under no exaggeration as to what my value is overall in society.
Surviving cancer has created such a thorn in my side. I am grateful for surviving because of all the others that have suffered and died from this disease. However, I also find myself humiliated because of the ways it affected my body and took away so many things I loved.
I can understand why those who lost someone to this disease would be offended by that. I don't feel that way all the time, but when I'm unable to walk because of the severe pain I deal with, or I can't leave my house due to Crohn's, I break down a little.
I am extremely tough on myself. I try to hold myself to a standard (I can hear the laughter of those who would disagree from here). For the majority of my life, I have tried to represent Christ with my actions, words, and behavior (that I know others are laughing at). It's hard to explain how much my relationship with Jesus means to me. I could not live without it. I know what touches my heart because God distinctly created specific characteristics that bring out tears, joy, sorrow, sincerity, and especially hope.
I am an empathetic person. I try my best to put myself in someone else shoes when they are experiencing something. I do my best no to judge others because I know how much I hate when others judge me.
HONEST EVALUATION MIGHT NOT BE POSITIVE
I think we all come to a point in life where we want to make a difference with the talents given to us. I'm certainly not unique when I say I have failed to accomplish those things. I'm trying, but lately, I look around and see the reality of what I have become. That scares me to death.
What if I never achieve? What if I let everyone down who chose to believe in me? I look up and see zero followers on Patreon. I've had to chase people down who said they would get back to me. I've thoroughly embarrassed myself, reaching out to people asking for speaking opportunities. My book was a total failure (only 23 copies sold).
Former NFL Coach Bill Parcells says, "You are what your record says you are." Well, if that's the case, then the results are apparent. I want everyone to understand that I'm the last thing that someone would call a success. I have to prove myself every day as well.
JOHN WOODEN SPEAKS THE TRUTH
Former UCLA Head Coach John Wooden used to tell his players, "Never mistake activity for achievement." When you reach my age, you should have certain things that you earned. Everything I had, I was given. I don't feel like I can call myself anything other than a burden until the results say something different.
While I'm currently laying the groundwork to be self-supporting, I have experienced countless potholes. I find myself needing motivation most mornings to get out of bed. Some days my legs are so swollen I am unable to put on pants. Other days I can't go 10 feet without having to circle back because of stomach issues. The battle is exhausting at times.
WHY AM I SAYING THESE THINGS?
I can't expect those who read this blog to support someone who is phony. I despise artificial people and those who purposely deceive others. If I can't be honest with my failures and in my desire to be better, then how can I be trusted? My heart is pure, but it's broken. It's broken because I see others around me who need me to be better and achieve success.
I would appreciate those who pray to please say a prayer for me this week. Someone close to me is also facing a situation that is causing an enormous amount of stress.
BEING AN EXAMPLE
One thing I don't want to ever be is fake. I owe honesty, integrity, and sincerity to all who cross my path. I want everyone to know that it's OK if you don't feel like conquering the world every day. It's OK if you suffer from depression, loneliness, feeling left out, confused, or like you don't fit in. Do the best you can and don't be afraid to reach out to others who you trust.
The Knicks disappointing season has led to the firing of David Fizzdale. From the start Fizzdale was the wrong hire for the team. He has never proven to be a good coach previously in his career and frankly never belonged coaching anything in a major market. Or a minor market. Or in the NBA. Considering all of the candidates available at the time, his hiring was a head scratcher, but thankfully many of the positive candidates that were looking for jobs when FIzzdale was hired are still available, as Fizzdale was fired so quickly into his awful Knicks areer.
Fizzdale’s firing is not the entirely the fault of David Fizzdale. It’s the fault of the team’s impotent owner, fat fuck James Dolan, and the shitty front offices that he’s assembled that draft poorly and recruit poorly.
Truth be told, I watch an embarrassingly large number of basketball games. I have watched the sport from the 1970’s through today. I have seen many changes in the game over time. Some for the better, most for the worst, as the league has turned itself from a sport and team game into globetrotter rosters and promotable movie stars. And that’s the type of coach the Knicks need: one that can turn the team into the Globetrotters offense. So let’s look at what’s out there in management and what could help this moribund organization out of its perpetual suckdom.
David Blatt- already hired as a front office guy. Blatt has multiple sclerosis, so he probably wants to be in a less physical role. A great basketball mind, and maybe a replacement for Steve Mills? GM Scott Perry? Both?
Mark Jackson – one of the most prolific point guards in Knick history, would be a local boy comes home story. Not sure if it would be a local boy does good story, however. Smart player, would teach floor spacing and passing, which the Knicks need. But can he teach them his shimmy?
Becky Hammon- No, because she’s a woman. But that’s not sexism, that’s advice. The NBA took forever just to use female officials, who are equally as bad as the male ones. But a female head coach in a situation that’s bound to fail? That will lead to 20 years of women not being considered for head coaching jobs. I am not saying Hammon is underqualified to coach. If she has Coach Pop’s endorsement, that’s good enough for me. But she is overqualified to coach a transient roster with a thus far not exactly franchise rookie in RJ Barrett as a centerpiece. Wait for the right opportunity, Becky. Right now? This isn’t it.
Mike Miller- You see this shit he’s running? No. Absolutely not.
Mark Few- A college coach? Yup. Few has performed miracles at Gonzaga. He has also worked with NBA players at international tournaments, so he has connections to some of the better players in the league. And as a college coach, he is familiar with recruiting so he knows how to talk with players. A knock against him is that he’s never won a championship, but neither have the Knicks in a few generations, so maybe baby steps is best? And at age 57, this may be his cash cow and only shot at the pros.
Patrick Ewing- this was suggested by Knicks superfan AMR, who feels that Ewing’s connection to the team would be a shot in the arm to a franchise that could maybe use a Hall of Famers touch. Ewing presently is head coach at his alma mater Georgetown, but has been an NBA assistant so he would know the grind. Also, Ewing was an outside shooting center long before outside shooting centers were a thing in the NBA, so he could help mold the young forwards and Mitchel Robinson into a multi-dimensional offensive player.
Steve Kerr- Already said no once, but with Golden State’s run over and the ability to poach Draymond Green to jumpstart a presently invisible defense plus salary cap flexibility and ANOTHER high draft pick? Plus the salary demands of 4 consecutive finals with 4 wins minus the LeBron rules? That may be something the Knicks should open checkbooks for.
We are not going to suggest who the Knicks should hire. No matter what advice we offer here, rest assured one thing- the Knicks will fuck things up. Because they always do. Fizzdale’s firing was partly his fault, but it’s not just Jizzdale. It’s the organization. Until they run themselves with a winning expectation and demand accountability from their players and staff, you’re going to have a lot of players developing like Kevin Knox and Frank Ntilikinia- underwhelming and failing to live up to expectations. And the top 5 pick this year will be more of the same.
SOURCE: Mark Everett Kelly/CKMagicSports.com/WorldWideSportsRadio.com/"My Scars Tell A Story"
https://worldwidesportsradio.com/henry-tannehill-keys-in-titans-in-historic-run
Henry and Tannehill Keys in Titans in Historic Run
Entering the 2019 NFL season, very few prognosticators figured the Tennessee Titans would be playing in their fifth AFC Championship Game in franchise history.
After a successful five-year run from 1999-2003, where they appeared in two AFC Championship Games and Super Bowl XXXIV, they fell on hard times. Only three times in the previous 17 seasons has the franchise reached the postseason, winning just one game.
After a dominant 43-13 victory at Cleveland to start the season, Tennessee fell flat, losing four of their next five games. Their offense was non-existent in those losses, totaling just 31 points.
The Titans decided to replace franchise QB Marcus Mariota with Ryan Tannehill, who was once viewed the same way as a member of the Miami Dolphins. However, injuries and inconsistency ended his tenure leaving many to doubt his ability to lead a consistent, productive offense.
Tannehill’s presence ignited the Titans stagnant offense in consecutive wins against the Chargers & Buccaneers (completed just under 71 percent of his passes while throwing for 505 yards, 5 TD, and 1 INT). However, a loss to the Panthers dropped their record under 500 again at 4-5. While Tannehill’s calm demeanor helped provide direction, something else was missing.
Enter Derrick Henry.
Derrick Henry Rushing Numbers
Last 8 Games (Includes Postseason)
Rushing Totals (Last 8 Games)
Total Yards
1,273
Yards Per Game
159.1
Attempts
203
Yards Per Carry
6.3
Touchdowns
11
>> 588 yards, 6.1 YPC, 196.0 YPG, 4 TD in last 3 games
Tennessee won their next four games behind Henry’s running, as he averaged 149.8 YPG and 6.7 YPC. A sore left hamstring saw Henry post only 86 rushing yards in a loss to the Texans and miss their 38-28 loss at New Orleans.
Facing a win and in scenario against division rival Houston (who had already clinched the AFC South), Henry returned with a vengeance. His 211 rushing yards helped him become the first Heisman Trophy winner since Barry Sanders in 1997 to win the NFL rushing title, while also clinching the sixth and final playoff spot in the AFC for the Titans.
As the Titans prepare to take on the Chiefs in the AFC Championship Game, Henry is enjoying a historic playoff run (literally). He set an NFL record on Saturday in defeating the AFC #1 seed Baltimore Ravens 28-12, posting his third straight game with at least 180 rushing yards. That followed his 182-yard performance that ended the Patriots run of eight consecutive AFC Championship Game appearances.
QB Throwing for under 100 Yds, Consecutive Playoff Wins
NFL Playoffs, Super Bowl Era
Yds/Opponent
Yds/Opponent
2019 Ryan Tannehill, TEN
72 at Patriots
88 at Ravens
1974 Terry Bradshaw, PIT
95 at Raiders
96 vs Vikings
After finishing the regular season averaging 228.5 passing yards per game with 22 TD and just 6 INT during the regular season, Tannehill has played a different role in the postseason. In both the Titans postseason wins, Tannehill has thrown for under 100 yards (72 at Patriots, 88 at Ravens). He is only the second QB in NFL playoff history to win consecutive playoff games without throwing for 100 yards in either game (Terry Bradshaw threw for 95 & 96 yards in wins over the Raiders & Vikings).
While Tannehill’s run at NFL playoff history could not happen without help from his teammates, perhaps its overall meaning can be seen in another example. The only other QB in franchise history to throw for under 100 yards and win a postseason game was Steve McNair. McNair finished 13-24 for 76 yards in the Titans 22-16 victory over the Buffalo Bills in the 1999 AFC Wild Card Game. Most people refer to that game as the “Music City Miracle”, which Kevin Dyson returned a kickoff 75 yards for the game-winning TD after receiving a cross-field lateral from Frank Wycheck. Could the NFL world be witness to another Titans Super Bowl run featuring this rare feet by a QB?
Craig Morton set the NFL postseason record for fewest completions (4) and passing yards (38) in a NFL postseason win when the Cowboys defeated the Detroit Lions 5-0 in the 1970 NFC Divisional Round.
If Tannehill and the Titans are able to defeat the Chiefs in the AFC Championship Game Sunday, they will join the Dallas Cowboys as the only teams to feature two different QB leading their team to a Super Bowl in the same postseason they won a game throwing for under 100 yards.
On December 26, 1970 in the first ever NFC Divisional Round, Dallas Cowboys QB Craig Morton set NFL records by throwing for the fewest yards (38) and completing the fewest passes (4) in a postseason win. Morton and the Cowboys defeated the Lions 5-0 on their way to losing to the Colts in Super Bowl V. A year later, Roger Staubach threw for 99 yards while leading the Cowboys to a 20-12 win over the Vikings in the NFC Divisional Round. Dallas went on to win their first Super Bowl, defeating the Miami Dolphins 24-3 in Super Bowl VI.
Fewest Regular Season Wins, Advanced To Super Bowl
Non-Strike Seasons
W-L
Super Bowl Result
2011 New York Giants
9-7
Defeated Patriots 21-17
2008 Arizona Cardinals
9-7
Lost vs Steelers 27-23
1979 Los Angeles Rams
9-7
Loss vs Rams 31-19
1967 Green Bay Packers
9-4-1
Defeated Raiders, 33-14
>>Tennessee Titans (9-7) at Kansas City in AFC Championship
What will the Titans show the NFL against the Chiefs? If it’s anything like what we have seen so far, Tennessee might become just the fifth team to win nine regular-season games and advance to the Super Bowl.
Welcome to my first blog entry of 2020. Thank you for reading, and please share with others who you believe can identify with some of the issues facing survivors.
What do I mean by my title? We already know cancer itself causes much confusion. How did I get this? What is wrong with my body? What can I do to avoid another relapse? These are all vital questions that survivors must ask themselves.
As we enter 2020, much of the cancer world still has it's head up its ass. There is no long-term advantage to radiation besides a burning on your insides. There is no long-term advantage to chemotherapy other than having toxins put in your body.
Why are medical communities sprouting with more chemo centers and radiation clinics? I honestly thought by now there would have been a cure. Why isn't more being put into the health of our T-cells and how they can be used to kill cancer without any damage from other treatments?
There are thousands of products out there that identity with cancer, but none of them should be confused with "treatment." Greed is everywhere. Predators are seeking people like you to "sell" you on the latest thing (diet, exercise, potion, powder, pills, shakes, etc...). Please don't fall for it.
I hope this helps in laying out some options. I understand how overwhelming a diagnosis can be. Education and empowerment help people make better choices.
I understand that the medical community scoffs at this notion. However, it would be best if you researched what they are claiming. I know several homeopathic doctors that care about lies the medical community tries to spew and desires to educate people on how our bodies work.
Each person needs to decide for themself what to do. I believe in treating the patient and finding the underlying cause of what caused cancer instead of just treating the symptoms. I would never tell someone NOT to do treatment, but damaging the body more isn't always the best option.
Cancer University
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Before I begin, I am on the board of Cancer U. None of us on the board benefit financially. I know each individual involved and the motivation behind the company. The sole purpose it exists is to educate & empower patients who feel lost and overwhelmed upon diagnosis.
I encourage each of you to check out the site (cancer university) and gain access to their library and thrivers forum. Right now, all of their services are free or should be. If there is a charge, email me, and I will help. The point of this is to help others while giving them hope and options, not make people more hopeless and broke.
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SOURCE: Worldwide Sports Radio Network/"The Morning Boys"/ Mark Everett Kelly/Ryan Hickey/CKMagicSports.com/Living As A Cancer Survivor/"My Scars Tell A Story"
SOURCE: Worldwide Sports Radio Network/"The Morning Boys"/Mark Everett Kelly/Ryan Hickey/CKMagicSports.com/Living As A Cancer Survivor/"My Scars Tell A Story"
SOURCE: Worldwide Sports Radio Network/"The Morning Boys"/Mark Everett Kelly/Ryan Hickey/CKMagicSports.com/Living As A Cancer Survivor/"My Scars Tell A Story"
SOURCE: Worldwide Sports Radio Network/"The Morning Boys"/ Mark Everett Kelly/Ryan Hickey/CKMagicSports.com/Living As A Cancer Survivor/"My Scars Tell A Story"
Source: Worldwide Sports Radio Network/"The Morning Boys"/Mark Everett Kelly/Ryan Hickey/CKMagicSports/Living As A Cancer Survivor/"My Scars Tell A Story"
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